Newlywed Infidelity and Curtains

I found this article (blog post?) on msn about how 12% of men and 15% of women admitted to cheating within the first year of marriage, and that it is estimated that the real number is more than half. That is nuts! If you're not even going to put in the effort for a year, why not consider that before you actually get married?!?

I do agree that monogamy is a choice, but I can't imagine how it could be possible for so many people to cheat that soon. I read something long before I was married that said something like: You don't always have to like your spouse, but you always have to love them. For me, this has rung true in my relationship. There have been periods where I didn't like Brian for whatever reason, but no matter what I love him, without question. Dislike, however, could not make me doubt the relationship enough to be unfaithful... just crazy. And kind of sad. It does make me think that my marriage is precious though, which is a good thing.

This morning I took my vomit curtains (they look like AND make me want to) and put them up in another room, where I can't see them unless I want to. Awesome, but now my livingroom looks naked and sad, and I just don't trust the miniblinds to keep the creepers out at night. I'm afraid I'm going to have to make a trip to find some drapes today, but what kind??? I am considering a mineral blue or moss green faux silk/lightblocker, but maybe I should try a stripe? I really think too much about this, but I don't want to make a rash decision and end up with curtains that may induce some vomiting. Also, I want them to also work when we get to Alaska, 'cause the crazy summer sunshine and arctic cold winters kind of scare me. Whatevs, we'll see how this all ends up...

So, I've had the weekend off from everything. No school, or work, obviously. So, I got a start on my Christmas shopping!! I found a suuuper cute pink Izod button up shirt for my mom, and some cozy flannel pajama pants for Brian. A healthy start, I'd say.

Also, I've discovered this website: http://www.givesmehope.com/: It is fantastic, for realz. I've been kind of in tears all morning, I love it!

And just in case any of you were wondering... we're down to 21% left on this dang donut. And this also means, the care package I'm working on (to be mailed out mid-October) is likely the LAST ONE for Deployment '09!! Hooray!! Time to start shopping for a homecoming dress!

My neice, being adorable, sporting a onesie from Auntie Mary. I miss her so much!!

I miss my husband. Crazy lots. Communication has been scarce lately, but the last time we talked it was for 40 glorious minutes and we talked about everything. I felt sooooo much better, 'cause stuff has been going down lately that is less than ideal. Its been a few days since then.

Anyways, I hate how some days it feels absolutely normal to be alone, and some days it feels like there is so much missing. Today is one of the bad days, where I can imagine going through another day without his sweet words and big blue eyes. I know I'm not the only one dealing with this, but today I can't pretend like it's okay.

I miss him.

3 months left of this...

Also, my roots are orange. In a not-subtle-really-alarming kind of way. Uh oh.

And I've decided that I am no longer a slave to fashion. Leggings be damned! None of those huge necklaces either, they make me look like a football player. Just pretty things that me happy and feel confident! Yay for being a grownup!

So,

It's been awhile, sorry. I've been in kind of a funk I guess. But, I have pictures of the recent improvements to my furniture!

T.V. stand before



New t.v. stand!



Bureau all finished! (filled in crevices, painted, changed handles) There was a before picture, but my blog wasn't in the mood to upload it.

Naked bookshelf

Finished bookshelf!

Hooray! This place is starting to feel 'put together'! As soon as I start working I'm going to buy a little dining set, and we'll be set for awhile, hopefully. I want to make sure that we arrive in Alaska with a whole household full of stuff. I'm not really sure why, it just feels necessary.

Have you heard about the new Disney movie coming?? Not the frog and princess one, though I am really excited that they're branching out some, but, I heard that they're doing Rapunzel!!!!!!! It isn't supposed to come out until 2010, and I cannot wait! Mandy Moore is set to be the voice of Rapunzel, which should be fantastic! When I was little my mom would read us the Brothers' Grimm version, and I loved it. I think it may have been where the whole crazy long hair thing started, which is fine. It was sooo romantic and tragic and pretty and perfect! Honestly, I want to have a baby girl just so I can use that name! Yea, I am obnoxiously excited, in case you weren't sure...

I got a job!! I'm sooo freakin' excited!! Since we're only going to be here 6ish more months, and have a few trips home planned, I didn't want to get a real job that wouldn't be flexible about days off and such. I decided to apply as a substitute for the school district here and just got word today!!! I'm soooo happy! I start next week! Crazy!

Brian called today and was not his cheerful self. I think the desert is getting to him... I tried to cheer him up a bit, but I don't think it did much. Not being able to do anything for him has to be the most frustrating part of this deployment for me. I do have to say though, our donut is moving right along! Hopefully between subbing, classes, and my crazy friends here these next few months will fly by!

Today I:

-saw two 'water bugs' (glorified flying cockroaches) in my apartment. Caught one, saw the other one chased into the bedroom by my pup...

-bought drawer pulls from Target. They are one size only and don't fit.

-stabbed myself with a steak knife. Blood and guts ensued. I managed to stop the bleeding though. I consider a bloody finger preferable to a trip to Darnall's ER.

-consulted with TWC to fix the malfunctioning DVR. The lady and I managed to squash the last bit of life out of my cable box. The repairman will be here Saturday.

-splattered black paint on my white walls, accidentally, of course.

-finally recieved my new entertainment stand in the mail! The manufacturer, however, did not include the necessary hardware. The missing parts should be here in 3-4 business days.

I give up. On the bright side, however, I got to talk to Brian for the first time in a few days!